There is a new level of fun I discovered today.
For the last ten years, I was a hermit. I never left the house, rarely intentionally met with people. I really had no friends. This realization came to me a few years ago after my grandmother passed away. The thought that I had no friends was more devastating than not going out to see people. For the past ten years, I didn’t attend a birthday party, go dancing, traveling, or stay up past midnight like most 20 year old’s do. I felt disconnected from society, even with people I had known for years because I didn’t fall into the “norm.” Some accused me of being depressed and I pushed back saying that they were accusing me of having a mental problem. In reality, I was providing nursing home care at home. So…back to the present.